Thanks for reading and for sharing about your own experiences, Reverie! I think whether or not the demisexual or asexual lable is helpful to you is up for you to decide -- I know people who describe feeling as you do who identify as ace, and I also know people who instead choose to identify as queer, or with the leather community, or any number of other ways. Sexuality is complex and ever changing in subtle ways, and I imagine that there are far more people who feel as you (or I) do than we realize. The number of private messages I've been getting about this piece sure suggests there are!