…I am now wondering if I have some neuroatypical aspects as some of my coping behaviors are similar. Thinking of unhelpful stress reactions as being a sign of being neuroatypical is certainly a lot more useful than simply feeling like you are broken in some key aspect.
Yes! And I”m definitely still learning this. As recently as a year or two ago, I would beat myself up for hours or days if I had to give up on something that didn’t suit my neurotype. I thought I was lazy — even while believing, in general, that laziness isn’t a “thing”. So much of what we call laziness is just a failure to recognize and legitimize the barriers that are present. I’m getting better at giving myself permission to be who I am — and to recognize that person as worthy. Messages like these help!